Challenges and reflections

29 Oct

trek 4

So I’ve been back from China for almost a week and my brain is finally beginning to feel less addled by jetlag and the hour change and it’s certainly good to be home.  My daughter is delighted by her panda bear toy so all is well and I’m almost forgiven for going!

I left my blog rather abruptly to go off to a celebration meal on completing the trek and then took to the tourist trail, spending a couple of days in both Beijing and Xi’an where I visited the Terracotta Army, Terracotta armyinspired, as I mentioned in an earlier post, by my patient friend Gail.  I’m pleased I spent the extra days as it gave me a greater insight into China and its contrasts.  It truly is a fascinating country and culture.

It’s also given me time to reflect on the trek.  I freely admit I was terrified before going – of failure I guess and my lack of time for preparation definitely didn’t help.   My lovely husband stoically put up with the tears and traumas and thankfully once I was at the airport I began to feel calmer and embraced the challenge more positively.

trek 3

That’s me in green! That was seriously steep.

I realise that must sound pretty pathetic but as I noted back in August, I’ve a had a mild phobia of physical challenges since my school days and my life is a bit mad after all, juggling a full on job, long commutes and my most important role as a Mum.  I guess taking on the trek reminded me what a fine tightrope I walk in my day to day life.  So who would have thought that today I would be able to say I loved it.  In fact, I loved every moment of it – even the really challenging bits.

pressing the limitsMy lovely bowel cancer survivor friend Fiona was a particular star in the run up, helping me to fundraise by personally donating, baking cakes to sell and doing an office collection.  She predicted the challenge I felt would make it more worthwhile in this picture she sent to me.  I held onto that thought before I went.  Thank you Fiona, you were right!

So what was so great about it?  Well it proved yet again that if I dig deep and hold my nerve I can extend my comfort zone and it does make the achievement sweeter.   I wasn’t sure I could manage the steep climbs but thanks to will power and focus I did and the views were an awesome reward.   In some places the mountains seemed to go on forever and the sheer scale and beauty of our surroundings was inspiring.  Trek 15 mountains trek 10 I’m now determined to hold onto the feeling of an endorphin fuelled buzz after a tough physical challenge and try and incorporate it into my normal life.  I’m not great at ‘me time’ but I am now hoping to join a local trekking group in the Cotswolds as I think the  benefits to my physical and mental health outweigh the downsides of time away from home.  I am even seriously thinking about doing another trek – I didn’t predict that I would catch that particular bug!

I think it was also great because whilst I didn’t raise as much money as I originally hoped (but I’m still working on that) I did raise some new funds for the charity and we’ve benefitted from some extra media coverage, which all helps to raise awareness.  I’ve also felt blessed by the tremendous support I’ve had from my friends, family, colleagues and my lovely online buddies.  So many people have been incredibly generous with their support and a few have even given multiple donations and I have found that humbling.  Thank you so much to everyone who has donated.

At a time when so many of my patient friends are having a tough time, going through  gruelling treatment, the fact that they still took time to cheer me on across the twittersphere was incredible.   I definitely carried thoughts of them and many we have lost, throughout the trek.

Of course whilst I was away there was the sad news about the death of Lynda Bellingham.  Yet another reminder that there is much to be done and why Bowel Cancer UK’ s Time for Guts campaign is so important.  People continue to die needlessly and I firmly believe its time it stopped.  I hope more than anything that my trek will encourage others to take action too and help us raise further funds and awareness because after all, no one individual or organisation can make the change we need but together we can.

solidarity

If bowel cancer has affected you or someone you love please don’t be a bystander, take action, get involved.  With focus and determination, together we really can save lives.

I hope you have enjoyed the pics and of course it’s still not too late to donate!

www.justgiving.com/deborahalsina1

or Text GUTS72 £5 or £10 to 70070.

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